I MISS MY ALAY BOYFRIEND :P

“Good morning my love!

I'm writing this blog from my home in bogor, and you are far away from me. I just want to share how i feel in this blog. In the last two days you were angry with me because i was leaving you to sleep without saying something sweet as we usually did. We usually talk in the cellphone for hours, but yesterday you can't called me, because you're sleeping with ur parents. Everytime i wake up, i wish i got something sweet like your morning text, but in the last two days i got your angry text. feel empty in the morning. I miss you, i dont want this simple problem make you angry with me. I'm so sorry i didn't mean it. I don’t think I could ever describe the way I really feel about you. I am so blessed for being the one you chose to be with and it’s a privilege to love you and to take care of you. keep loving me B.

Thank you for being so caring, loving and patient.

I love you."

-medina-

"the luckiest guy on earth" kata-kata ini kayanya, baru kemaren di telinga pas pertama kali jadian sama bino. sekarang tanggal 21 keenam yang saya lewatin bareng bino, tepat hari ini hubungan kita udah 5bulan. wooow, ga kerasa banget ya, masa-masa pengenalan ini amat menyenangkan, orang yang tadinya stranger sekarang bisa jadi salah satu orang yang berarti buat hidup saya. Bino udah banyak ngasih pelajaran buat saya. Dia udah ngisi hari-hari saya selama 5bulan terakhir ini, seneng rasanya bisa sayangin dan disayangin bino. Kita menjadi pendengar, penyemangat satu sama lainnya. Pengen rasanya terus kaya gini... semoga masih ada tanggal 21 yang lainnya. amin :) Happy 5th monthiversary to my everything, i'm the luckiest girl on earth.

dedicated to my bino

4 words i never want to hear

• i dont love you
• you’re diagnosed with cancer
• i found someone else
• it was never real
• we need to talk
• you're going to die
• your ____ is dead
• you cant have kids
• lets just be friends
• we cant be together

Watch your thoughts, they become words.

Watch your words, they become actions.

Watch your actions, they become habits.

Watch your habits, they become character.

Watch your character, it becomes your destiny.

-Lao Tze-

Mandy Moore - Only Hope

There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.

So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now, you're my only hope.

I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

Cintailah sesorang itu atas dasar siapa dia sekarang dan bukan siapa dia sebelumnya. Kisah silam tidak perlu diungkit lagi, kiranya kamu benar-benar mencintainya setulus hati.

"TRUE LOVE DOESN'T COME BY FINDING THE PERFECT PERSON, BUT BY LEARNING TO SEE AN IMPERFECT PERSON PERFECTLY"

it wouldn't be love without fights

Kritik dari seseorang :

"Jangan terlalu mudah mengeluarkan air mata"

Gimana ngga mudah kalo aku ngeluarin air mata itu karena kamu

 Hari ini bisa di bilang bad day karena hari ini aku telah mengecewakan orang yang amat aku akungi yaitu pacar aku. Setelah kemarin kita berdua selisih paham dan sempet bt-btan akhirnya kita mutusin buat ketemu. Bino nyamperin aku ke jatinangor, dia jemput di depan kampus abis itu kita nyari tempat enak buat ngobrol2, akhirnya kita ke dunkin donuts. Kita udah baik2 aja dan udah becanda2 lagi, kita anggep masalah kemaren itu cuma salah paham dan kita bertukar pikiran akan hal itu. kemarin aku sempet nangis sendirian di kosan, emang aku ini bisa dibilang orang yang cengeng. Ngga tau kenapa gampang banget ngeluarin air mata, tapi itu bener2 dari hati yang terlalu sensitif.

 Ok, masalah kemaren udah selesai tapi masalah baru muncul ......... Bino ngecek hp aku dan dia nemuin "sesuatu" yang ngga enak di twitter. Ya sesuatu yang berkaitan dengan mantan aku. Saat itu perasaan campur aduk, Ya Allah baru aja baikan kenapa ada aja masalah, baru aja kangen-kangenan kenapa kaya gini. Sedih, kesel, kecewa karena aku udah ngecewain orang yang paling aku akungin. Dia langsung berubah jadi bt, diem dan dia langsung nawarin "kamu pulang ke bogor sekarang aja yuk, nanti kesorean" hari itu aku emang mau rencana pulang ke bogor, tapi gimana mau pulang kalo perasaan kaya gini dan masih ninggalin masalah sama bino. Kita langsung pergi dari dunkin, tadinya bino mau nganter ke leuwi panjang tapi aku minta dia untuk ngobrol sebentar buat ngomongin masalah ini. Di mobil Bino diem dan masang tampang bt, menurut aku itu hal yang wajar. Tapi aku bingung harus gimana, sedih banget ngecewain bino rasanya lebih sedih dari dikecewain sama orang lain.

 Di mobil aku mulai bicara kecil-kecil, tapi bino diem dan jawabnya dingin banget, aku coba pegang tangannya tapi dia ngelepasin gitu aja. bingung bingung bingung harus gimana, aku coba minta maaf berulang-ulang tapi ngga ngubah keadaan. Dipikiran udah sempet kepikiran, apa bino bakal ninggalin aku ya?... campur aduk banget deh waktu itu. Aku ngerasa salah banget, tapi aku udah ngga ada perasaan apa-apa lagi, sedikitpun ke mantan aku. Yang aku akungin cuma bino sekarang, yang aku takutin apa yang ada dipikiran bino. Pasti dia mikir aneh-aneh tentang aku. Mungkin kalo aku banyak omong juga percuma, yang perlu aku lakuin cuma ngebuktiin kalo aku akung dia, aku mau saling menjaga, ngejaga perasaan dia.

 Oiya, kita pada saat itu berhenti di BCA karena aku mau ngambil uang, Bino nunggu di mobil, setelah ngambl uang, pas di mobil aku ngeliat bino lagi ngebersihin bekas pulpen di tempat aku duduk. Reflek aku tanya dia, itu kenapa? dia ngejawab dengan tampang jutek dan ngangkat pulpen aku. Astagfirullah reflek aku nangis senangis-nangisnya, itu udah ngga bisa ditahan lagi, dari di jatinangor sebenernya udah nahan-nahan biar ga nangis, tapi pas tau aku yang bikin jok mobilnya kotor karena pulepen aku langsung aku nangis, di dlm hati Ya Allah bodoh banget sih, pasti bino sebel banget sama aku, bodoh, bodoh, bodoh. Semua malah memperburuk keadaan. Aku nangis sampe Bino akhinya nenangin aku dan coba buat ngehibur aku dengan mata cinanya. Tapi aku malah makin nangis disitu, iyalah nangis kali ini seneng akhinya bino ngga ngediemin aku lagi abis itu dia nawarin pelukan yang bikin aku tenaaaaaaaaaang banget, rasanya lepas, tenang, lega, nyaman banget dipeluk sama orang yang kita akung. Aku tetep coba minta maaf berulang-ulang, dan bino akhirnya bilang "orang aku udah maafin daritadi, a cuma lagi mikir aja tadi. jangan diulangin ya!" Alhamdulillah, yaampun pacarku baik banget, seneng banget rasanya. Aku jadi semakin respect sama dia, aku ngga mau mengulang kesalahan dan ngga mau bikin dia kecewa lagi. Seakung itu aku sama dia, indescribable.

 Setelah tenangin diri akhirnya kita ngobrol-ngobrol di ngopdul. Disana kita komitmen buat saling ngejaga. Insya Allah bin, i will love you till my heart stops. Akhirnya, Bino nganterin aku ke tempat travel buat pulang ke Bogor. Semoga masalah ini ngga ngubah apa-apa tapi ngebuat kita berdua tambah saling jaga, saling akung, dan langgeng amin. Di bulan ke 4 aku sama dia aku udah banyak ngelewatin masalah, dan itu ngebuat aku semakin akung dia. Aku mau jadi yang terabaik buat dia, insyaallah, amin :)

ps: kamu salah kalo kamu bilang nangis itu senjata aku, tangisan aku itu keluar dengan sendirinya, saat kamu bikin aku bt aku nangis, saat aku bikin kamu bt pun aku nangis. tangisan itu nunjukin kalo aku akung banget sama kamu. ya aku emang lemah, maka dari itu aku butuh kamu buat ngejagain dan selalu disamping aku.

i couldn't resist, they are too sweet

"Fashion is not something that exists in dresses only. Fashion is in the sky, in the street, fashion has to do with ideas, the way we live, what is happening." - Coco Chanel

Dreams

I always dream and hope that im going to have a perfect life

and become a successfull women

with a great husband, daughter and son

a wonderfull home

a job that i love so much

But life isn’t that easy right?

"The key to happiness is having dreams. The key to success is making your dreams come true"

a great friend and a lovable lover

MY MOOD BOOSTER

supaaaa busy month

This month was super busy. i am tired of this college stuff, a lot of assignment, midterm tests. wwwoooow, i felt like im going to dieeeeeee. hahaha, ya actually with a lot of task to get done in the last 2 weeks, i felt so sleepless and weak and the worst things are i miss my home, my family, especially my mom. I need them so much. i haven't been home for 3 weeks. well, that's life, it's a choice not a chance, that determines your destiny. i want to have brighter future, so i should work and learn harder. With a lot of task like that, i still have some problem with my friend. actually i dont know what's on her mind, she said something that make me dissapointed. i'm so dissapointed with her behavior. But lucky iam to have boyfriend like bino, he always there for me, he always listen to my problem and give me some good advice. he's a good listener, good friend, bestfriend ever. So, don't give up. Stand up! Smile, thx B. xoxo

Quote of the day
"Be responsible for everything that happens to you in your life. Good or bad, you created it"

my dream house

I may not be the prettiest girl you've ever had.
I may not be the thinnest girl you've ever had.
I may not be the hottest girl you've ever had.
I may not be the smartest girl you've ever had.

But I am the girl who's always love you in your ups and downs.

Today, you came to my dorm. You took a bus for an hour just to spend a little time with me, and this is what I felt :

I love the way you stared at me when I close my eyes, then you closed your eyes and I stared at you

I love the way you said I love you

I love when we held hands at first and talked for hours and finally kissed after so long

I love when you told me that I’m beautifull, again and again

Everytime we see each other I just wanna tell you that I love you so much, and i want to spend more time with you.

"i’m a fan of love ,it feels so good to know someone cares about you"

"My family will be always the best thing that i got in my life"

anak kecil dibawah adalah ........ bino ! hahaha, lucu banget ya.

i found this on a facebook page, guess who?